Par sauli laikam mees sheit priecaajamies vairaak nekaa par shokolaadi un saldeejumu. Jo taa ir tik reti, un tik maz, un tik pusaizmigusi un vaaja. 2.decembrii saule buus tikai divas minuutes. Hops - ir, hops - nav! Un tu paliec apjucis, un tavas smadzenes vairs iisti nespeej izsekot tam, kad un kaapeec ir jaaiet guleet.
Mees vakar vienpadsmitos naktii guleejaam suunaas un kjeerpjos un skatiijaamies zvaigznes. Zem manis bija bedre, un es biju sadauziijusi celjus, bet man bij tik ljoti vienalga - virs galvas bija miljoniem mirguljojoshu pasauliishu. un ziemeljblaazma bija maigi zalja, un tas izskatiijaas taa, it kaa aiz kalna kaads buutu iededzis desmitiem kabatas lukturiishu un ljaavis tiem izgaismot debesis.
baac. neaptverami skaistu Dievs ir radiijis pasauli, kuraa man jaadziivo.
Un piereedzes, un iespaidu, un cilveeku, un domu, un vaardu, un luugshanu, un sarunu, un smieshanaas ir tik daudz, ka mana sirds ik pa briidim uzkaraas, to visu meegjinot apstraadaat. Es gribu buut izmainita, un es jau esmu. This will be your story, this will be your song... Laikam jau viens no indikatoriem, peec kaa es to varu pateikt, ir tas, ka esmu gatava palaist valjaa Latviju. Un tas ir daudz.
un es esmu saakusi speeleet shahu (!!!)
un es naakamo nedeelju pavadiishu uz salas okeaana viduu.
un es nespeeju nedomaat par grenladni.
un es dziivoju jaunieguutaa briiviibaa.
p.s. mans shiisnedeeljas mazais priecinsh - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mlYkIJVguCU . enjoy :)
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We are more excited about sun than we are about chocholate or ice-cream. Sun is so rare, and so little, and so half-asleep and weak. On the 2nd of december we will have it only for 2 minutes. Hop - here it is, hop - it's gone! And all you can do is to stay there, and you are so confused, and your brain&body are not able to follow when and why they have to go to sleep anymore .Yesterday at eleven in evening we were outside, sleeping in the moss and watching stars. I had a whole in the ground under me, and I had hit my knees, but I didn't care. I had billion of small blinking worlds above me, and the northen lights were light green, and it looked like a light of tens of torches hidden behind a big mountain.
"baac". God has made this earth sooooo freakin beautiful.
There are so many experiences, thoughts, impressions, people, words, prayers, conversations and laughter in here, and my heart and mind sometimes are simply not able to handle it. I want to be changed, and I already am. "This will be your story, this will be your song" . I think one of the indicators how I can tell that, is that I think I am ready to let go the thought about coming back to Latvia. And that's huge.
I've started to play chess (!!!)
I will spend the next week on an island in the middle of ocean.
I can't stop thinking about greenland.
I am living in a new-found freedom.
And I still have a long way to go.
p.s. this is my small tiny little joy of the week - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mlYkIJVguCU . enjoy :)
